Enjoy the Little Things
The more and more I realize how little control I have, the more I realize how blessed I am. The past couple of weeks have been so incredible reflection-wise. I started working on a website that is focused on our adoption journey. It is the place we plan to promote and send people to for information (updates, prayer requests, financial contributions, etc.). I've had so much fun sharing our heart with everyone (well...kind of- I haven't published it yet), but to me it is public now. I have typed it out. It solidifies our decision. It has brought me so much joy.
Tye and I are so blessed. We spent Easter with my family in Northwest Arkansas. I always feel so at peace in Arkansas. I don't know what it is- the beauty of nature around us or the constant back and forth of my parents and sister..but it is home. It is nice to spend afternoons on the front porch swing with a glass of sweet tea. It is calming to sit on the bench at Tanyard Creek in Bella Vista. It is encouraging to jog through the neighborhood and see familiar faces (okay, let's be real..I hate jogging). I am still trying to convince myself that it is peaceful. Whatever.
Many know the internal battle I have been fighting this year- the where do we fit in battle. Tye and I were involved in a college ministry that we were blessed beyond belief to be a part of. However, we tried to become adults in that ministry immediately (acting as leaders for the students)- and that didn't work. Since that time, we've gotten plugged in with another ministry, but many of our friendships are in transition. And I long to be at peace.
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Tye applied for a position in Bentonville (AR) last week. We don't know what will come of that, but I believe the Lord will close the door if we are not supposed to move. I know that He understands my heart, and I believe that the answer will be black and white. Logically, Arkansas makes sense for our future goals (adoption and loan repayment), but I also know that the logical way is not always the way of the Lord. Many times, He uses non-logical scenarios to prove His power. We will proclaim His name no matter where we live or what our feelings might be.
I meet with a group of friends early on Tuesdays to study scripture and simply have "girl time." One of them mentioned submission in marriage. They commented on how well I have "submitted" to Tye since we got married last June. I would not call myself an expert, but I can say that I could not be more thankful for the man I married. I am a pretty bold outgoing person filled with my own opinions, and somehow, he can calm my heart like no one else. His love of the Lord and desire to know Him is something that I respect tremendously. I trust him, because I know he is a learner. I know he has sought out answers rather than taking the opinions of others as his own. He makes it easy to "submit" to him.
The second week of April, Tye and I took a trip to Tennessee. My best friend, Taylor, recently had a baby boy. I am OBSESSED with him. We weren't able to stay very long, but we were there long enough for me to get in some good cuddle time and get Chick-Fil-A with my best friend. I am so grateful that our friendship has not suffered since their move. It has been hard on both of us to be experiencing new things (me/marriage and a her/baby) without each other close. We always said we wanted to raise our kids together. Hopefully someday soon that will be a reality.
I know that this post seems somewhat all over the place (and super long!!). The moral of the story is that I have been reflecting- reflecting on jobs, marriage, adoption, friendships, and the future..while being thankful for the present. More to come soon on our adoption website!
Tye and I are so blessed. We spent Easter with my family in Northwest Arkansas. I always feel so at peace in Arkansas. I don't know what it is- the beauty of nature around us or the constant back and forth of my parents and sister..but it is home. It is nice to spend afternoons on the front porch swing with a glass of sweet tea. It is calming to sit on the bench at Tanyard Creek in Bella Vista. It is encouraging to jog through the neighborhood and see familiar faces (okay, let's be real..I hate jogging). I am still trying to convince myself that it is peaceful. Whatever.
Many know the internal battle I have been fighting this year- the where do we fit in battle. Tye and I were involved in a college ministry that we were blessed beyond belief to be a part of. However, we tried to become adults in that ministry immediately (acting as leaders for the students)- and that didn't work. Since that time, we've gotten plugged in with another ministry, but many of our friendships are in transition. And I long to be at peace.
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Tye applied for a position in Bentonville (AR) last week. We don't know what will come of that, but I believe the Lord will close the door if we are not supposed to move. I know that He understands my heart, and I believe that the answer will be black and white. Logically, Arkansas makes sense for our future goals (adoption and loan repayment), but I also know that the logical way is not always the way of the Lord. Many times, He uses non-logical scenarios to prove His power. We will proclaim His name no matter where we live or what our feelings might be. I meet with a group of friends early on Tuesdays to study scripture and simply have "girl time." One of them mentioned submission in marriage. They commented on how well I have "submitted" to Tye since we got married last June. I would not call myself an expert, but I can say that I could not be more thankful for the man I married. I am a pretty bold outgoing person filled with my own opinions, and somehow, he can calm my heart like no one else. His love of the Lord and desire to know Him is something that I respect tremendously. I trust him, because I know he is a learner. I know he has sought out answers rather than taking the opinions of others as his own. He makes it easy to "submit" to him.
The second week of April, Tye and I took a trip to Tennessee. My best friend, Taylor, recently had a baby boy. I am OBSESSED with him. We weren't able to stay very long, but we were there long enough for me to get in some good cuddle time and get Chick-Fil-A with my best friend. I am so grateful that our friendship has not suffered since their move. It has been hard on both of us to be experiencing new things (me/marriage and a her/baby) without each other close. We always said we wanted to raise our kids together. Hopefully someday soon that will be a reality.
My little sister is a Senior in high school this year, so I spent the weekend at home with family for her last prom. I was able to tweak her hair and do her makeup for her. I also brought Catie along for the fun (considering she loves prom and thinks she wants to live in Arkansas someday). She was a great tag-along buddy.
Catie and her fiance Keith have been incredible blessings to Tye and I this year. Keith and Tye met while working at Johnny Mac's (a sporting good's store), and Catie and I met after one of my best friends (and her mentor) moved back home to St. Louis. I became the stand-in mentor you could say. Over the course of this year, Tye and I have been able to pour into their relationship like we desired so badly to have for ours while we were dating/engaged. We call them "our kids," and we can't wait to see what the next few years have in store for them. They've become a part of our family.
I know that this post seems somewhat all over the place (and super long!!). The moral of the story is that I have been reflecting- reflecting on jobs, marriage, adoption, friendships, and the future..while being thankful for the present. More to come soon on our adoption website!
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